January gets its name from the Roman god Janus[i] who was the god of gateways and transitions from one stage of life to another. It is often depicted as a two-faced god with one looking backwards and another looking forward. The Romans believed that if they invoked the good nature of Janus, he would keep bad things from happening in the new year and open the doorway to good things instead. However, bad/good things happen every year; sometimes right in the beginning of January (my heart goes out to the victims of the California wildfires) and I don’t think Janus does a good job keeping only good things happening during the new year. Furthermore, I know invoking the good grace of some mythological two-faced god to give me only happy times is not a good idea because as I’ve been reading from St. Augustine’s “City of God”, most of those Roman gods are probably demons intent on bad things happening to me.
Still, it’s apropos that a two-faced past/future looking
mythological deity gives its namesake to the month where we all look backwards
and forwards during the month. We open
our January credit card statements showing how crazy we went on the December
holiday spending. We receive our W2 or
1099 or whatever other forms showing how much we earned in 2024 that we must submit
to the IRS by April 15th, 2025, along with our 1040 forms. On
January 23rd, 2025, the Academy Awards [ii]announced
who were the nominees for best actor, best actress, best director, best
cinematographer, etc. for 2024 that will be revealed on March 2nd,
2025. We take down our Christmas
decorations and put them away while maybe seeing if there are still any Christmas
2024 items left on sale for Christmas 2025.
And I am looking back on a list of resolutions I published
on Facebook on December 31st, 2023, to see how well I kept them.
I didn’t keep one.
It’s common for many people at the start of the year[iii]
to resolve to lose weight, exercise more, give up French-fried potatoes for
healthier plain baked potatoes instead, etc.
I think it’s because starting in
the fall lots of us indulge in indulgent pumpkin spice lattes and mini Milky
Way bars and end up chowing down on tons of nachos and buffalo wings while
cheering on teams in January football playoffs with sugar cookies, hot and cold
chocolates, egg nog, candy canes, and one to two all you can eat turkey feasts
in between. I even made a simple goal of just losing 20
LBs by December 2024 which I thought was a S.M.A.R.T. (Acronym for Specific,
Measurable, Achievable, Relevant or Realistic, and Time control)[iv] goal. I gained a few pounds instead. That’s why I joked in my Feb 13th,
2024, Mardi Gras/Valentine’s Day/Ash Wednesday post about trying to start a
diet around Lent instead of January because I know I still have boxes of
Salerno Santa’s Favorite[v]
anise cookies in the pantry along with lots of boxes of peppermint or other
flavors of chocolates in my fridge. However, trying to deny my cravings for
pastel M&M’s, Peeps, Popeye’s chicken and biscuits, potato chips, and
probably a bunch of other bad for me foods is nearly impossible. It is hard to
eat healthily when temptation is everywhere, and I’m convinced a cookie or 20
is cheaper than a Prozac prescription to elevate my mood.
Maybe that’s why I set up a goal to go to church and pray
more often. I know I’m helpless on my
own to deny the allure of junk food which is why I need divine
intervention. Heck, I need to indeed
dig deeper into my own faith as I hopefully continue my ongoing letters to
Generation Alpha (published 3 in 2024) so I don’t become a dreaded hypocrite
that will turn off not only Gen Alpha but really any other generation too. Now I do go to church every Sunday, and I
frequently pray the rosary, (badly) but I’m not really putting in the extra
spiritual effort to really cement my relationship with God. Think of this way. I walk about 200 steps to and from the
laundry room in our building lifting a 30 LB laundry basket about 3 to 5 times
a week where I barely burn 224 calories[vi]
let alone the 770[vii]
calories that can be found from a single Crumbl chocolate chunk cookie that I
reviewed in May. So just as someone in
my BMI index needs to find other ways to burn off calories to lose weight, I
need to up my spiritual game to ensure my spiritual life is healthy enough and
my faith in God is strong enough when I attempt to get myself canceled again in
June for my random thoughts on LGBTQ+ issues.
(Last June I went on about the T in the LGBTQ+ acronym although for the
record I do not hate transgenders. I
will gladly use a transgender’s preferred pronouns out of love and respect for
a transgender who is at least old enough to vote and is committed to living out
their new chosen gender instead of making fun of mine via the slutty transvestite
route.)
I did a quick Google/Bing search as to how often people who
make resolutions keep their resolutions.
Per an article I found on Psychology today 80% of those who start New
Year’s resolutions abandon them by the time February rolls around[viii]. The
article cited things like goals being unclear like my goal to get my apartment
cleaned up enough to have a pet dog live with me and my husband. It sounds simple enough-clean up an
apartment. However, the reality is far
from that. I would best describe my
apartment as cluttered. Both my husband
and I are a bit pack-rat-ish. There are
bins and boxes of stuff my husband and I have yet to go through with the Marie
Kondo philosophy in mind that have been untouched since he and I moved
here. Another article I read in the
Rocky Mountain Collegian[ix] explained that motivation is hard to maintain
when you’re trying to make life changes.
In my husband and my case, it is
hard to change our standard habit of wanting to crash after our respectful
stressful days at our work and let our mind go numb binge-watching NCIS
episodes on Paramount+. Furthermore,
my husband is working two jobs to help us make ends meet and well, well I’ll
explain more about my job situation in a bit.
Let’s just say I am exhausted; my husband is exhausted and it’s hard for
us to have the energy to cook and clean up the dinner dishes at night let alone
go through boxes of old pay stubs or other financial items that may not be
needed in my life or other old junk that we have no use for. Even
on our one mutual day off together, Sunday, we often turn the day into a day of
literal rest as both of us try and catch up on the sleep we missed out due to
one or both of us keeping the other awake with our snoring. In
other words, most people are lazy, and they really need some sort of game plan
to ensure they are implementing and practicing new habits instead of falling
back on their bad old habits. And yes,
I would qualify my slothfulness as typical of most people.
Which leads me to my 4th resolution for 2024, to
spend more time with friends and family.
Now, I did spend some time with friends and family in 2024. Of course, there are holidays and birthday
get-togethers and the occasional dinner out, but I’m not communicating with
them as frequently as I should. I
recently watched this video that pretty much called everyone of working age a
liar because we’ll often say our friends and families are our top priority,
when it’s really our jobs that are top priority[x]. This makes sense since we must pay for the
roofs over our heads, the groceries in our panties and fridges, the heat/cool
needed against winter/summer weather extremes and other necessities of life and
certainly those things have gotten more expensive in 2025. I know of course I track everyone on
Facebook and check in on their lives.
However, I have often heard Facebook is to actual social interaction
what McDonalds is to food. Sure, a McDonalds
Big Mac will satisfy your hunger for a short time, but it’s not the most
nutritious way to get your daily protein and vitamins with tons of fat and
sodium in the way.[xi]
So too we need genuine social interactions
to feel connected to one another.[xii]
I primarily check in via Facebook on my friends’ lives to
see how they are doing, but I’m only getting a rough sense of how they are
doing not how they are actually doing. Rarely
is anyone posting on Facebook or other social media platforms how badly they or
their lives may suck at the moment. [xiii] To find out how they are really doing it’s
better to hear their voices over the phone or meet them face to face. I know one of my best posts on Facebook
last year had nothing to do with this blog.
It had everything to do with a friend and former co-worker who decided
to move her family to Orlando Florida in 2024 and I posted a picture our get together
before she moved away. I’m a bit
jealous about the fact she and her kids can now go to Walt Disney World anytime
they want. Right now, I can’t afford a
$5 ride on a rickey shoddily constructed tilt-a-whirl from a summertime
traveling carnival like I referenced in my 4th of July post now let
alone a trip to one of the most expensive places to enjoy temporary happiness
here on earth.
Because those co-workers of mine I referenced in my 4th
of July post, well let’s just say I have had to add the title of “Former” to a
lot of them in 2024.
The company I work for is in the process of going out of business. They closed several of the furniture stores down and there are more closures to come. I know I am not in any position to be unemployed for any length of time and the stress of trying to carry the workload the company has shoved on my shoulders while trying to find another job to ensure the income I need to pay my bills is still coming in is stressful. I think I may have vented a lot of anxiety about my future upon poor Lewis Black’s shoulders as I attacked him for attacking undecided voters in 2024. I’m sure the media, (social and legitimate) didn’t help my fears when they played out the election of 2024 as the election that could end or save democracy in America. Then again, it’s also my own lazy fault I didn’t pursue my idea to start a write in campaign for Nicki Haley for president that I proposed in March 2024 either. Maybe if I had the election would have been quite different.
That’s the hardest thing about goals. John Lennon once sung in “Beautiful Boy”[xiv]
how “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans”. No one can truly predict what happens from
one moment to the next. Heck, I know I
had a private goal of trying to publish more of these blogposts in 2024, but
I’ve published less. I’m trying to
understand why I prefer to watch someone else’s hard work of entertaining me instead
of putting forth the hard effort myself to entertain others, like the other spec script I outlined
in February for “The Chosen” after I saw the first three episodes of season 4
in the theaters. Part of
me at the end of the day would rather watch YouTube like Lindsey Ellis’ epic
exploration of the romance of John Lennon & Yoko Ono with Ono
becoming akin to multiple wannabe Ahabs' white whale after Lennon's death. [xv]. My goal was to link that video with a quote
from St. Augustine that I posted underneath that video in the comments. At first glance the quote appears to be a
weird non sequitur to the video, only I would have explored why the superstars
and media stars of today are no different than the empty idols St. Augustine vehemently
protested in his City of God.
Unfortunately, I’m still trying to make my way through that dense
philosophical tome to find evidence to prove my thesis that human nature hasn’t
changed their need for some sort of easy-going theology to ease their own souls
like the worship of modern false idols.
Not to mention, I may be reading the wrong St. Augustine book
anyway. (Original quote came from Confessions). I know for the moment I need to put my writing skills into cover letters going on and on of why XYZ company is great,
why I’m great and how it would really be a great idea for them to hire me.
So, I’m hoping to write more in the future. But nothing is guaranteed. I’m hoping this isn’t my last blog post but
may be my last for a while.
[xii] https://www.artandhealing.org/loneliness-linked-to-negative-social-media-experiences/?psafe_param=1&gad_source=1&gclid=Cj0KCQiA4-y8BhC3ARIsAHmjC_GL7R5KMBdzeqPTfxdFgbUTX4cuz0wGmOlsH9u7ziijaxxVMr8IJZ4aAhLqEALw_wcB
[xiv] https://www.google.com/search?q=lyrics+to+beautiful+boy&sca_esv=bbdc9f29fea0b018&authuser=0&source=hp&ei=QhCbZ8ivCPK0ptQP1PPw0Q0&iflsig=ACkRmUkAAAAAZ5seUjGgq7M9FKHTNoR8Uqnoq40Tm7U6&oq=Lyrics+to+beautiful+boy&gs_lp=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&sclient=gws-wiz